| Call & Answer |
[26 Oct 2006|05:01am] |
I see you all – like me – seeking to communicate
And achieving it to some degree.
But without an awful lot of time and effort, our efforts are wasted,
forgotten, ignored.
Even if they’re cheered or slammed
It all seems hollow – a promise unfulfilled.
The vacuum between us endures.
And so much like life – It Is what You put into it.
The successful, the acknowledged, the celebrated
Are no better than the masses except in distinguishing themselves as
tireless self-promoters.
Developing and building an early following, is key.
Due to inertia they may never need do anything of note again.
They cease, in many ways, to be persons
At least not like people I know
(may even attain immortality)
becoming instead enterprises, even institutions.
Anyone can do it, just not Everyone
That wouldn’t work at all.
But celebrity isn't about them
It really has nothing to do with them
they could be anyone - and next year it will be
why do we thrust individuals into such positions
and then proceed to judge them and fawn over them
surely its a sickness
what possible benefit do we derive as individuals or tribes of people
i think the answer is in leadership
in which case our admiration is surely misdirected
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| I Need! I Need! |
[17 Oct 2006|07:15am] |
When I most enjoy work (that is, my job) its when I am building something;
a system, a model, an understanding of connections between things.
Whether building the logic, the actual product, or the explanation
– Its the insights to understanding (connection) that thrills
– makes me go “aha! and therefore, aha again!”
It’s the central motivator that keeps me interested, and believing
in the reality and meaning of my work (and here I mean my life’s work)
simply trying to make sense of the world:
To understand as much as I possibly can about how things work,
and why, and how I can further use this information
to build future understanding and add to my ability to succeed and survive.
– but primarily for the sake of the knowledge itself.
Call it a Calling
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| Starting at the Beginning of course is impossible |
[17 Oct 2006|05:37am] |
So like anything else, it matters not where I jump in
The question is – given an activity, a group, enterprise, course of action
– having become aware of it – do I jump in, or do I not jump in?
Do I sink, float, or swim, to the lead, dense middle or back periphery
of this pool of possibility?
Do I find it too hot, or not hot enough, and jump out and shake myself of it
– learning it is NOT for Me.
Do I try Anything at all?
Do I Care at all?
Do I Want?
No! I Need! I Need!
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| Flow (bak.flo) |
[14 Oct 2006|06:57am] |
What literary form to choose
when the substance is not literal but consciousness itself
The whole world within screaming to be unleashed, freed, dispersed
Does an adequate medium exist outside my thoughts
(or yours too, I concede)
Blog approaches but avoids the requisite dynamism
I have so much to give back - or have i anything at all
Anything that hasn't been said (lived, imagined) before
Absolutely I must, But what
What is the essence of what my consciousness strives to communicate?
What can be of greatest benefit for all to hear?
(not that i imagine any such audience)
What would at least be an adequate beginning?
Starting at the beginning, of course, is impossible.
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| Concluding 2005 Books |
[13 Jan 2006|02:32pm] |
Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep:
– Philip K. Dick
– It was okay. Harrison Ford was well cast as the Bounty Hunter, Decker, in the Movie “Blade Runner”. Reading the book, Decker’s lines came out as if in Harrison Ford’s presentation. (Interesting). Of course there were quite a few differences from the movie, but watching the movie again, I had a better appreciation for nuance and motive.
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| Concluding 2005 Books |
[13 Jan 2006|02:30pm] |
The Myth of Sanity
– Dr. Martha Stout
Pg.159 “…being detached from reality is a functional definition of insanity” (but the premise of the book is that this is perfectly normal for all of us to do, to some extent)
Pg.102 “…Consciousness is small.” “From moment to moment, consciousness does not apprehend the whole of the mind, any more than it apprehends the whole of the world.”
Tor Norretranders of Denmark has borrowed the term “user illusion” from computer science… “At any given moment, a human being… is aware of only the modest amount of information that appears neatly on the computer screen, rather than the almost inconceivable quantities of information used by, or available to, the machine.” ( Read more... )
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| Concluding 2005 Books |
[13 Jan 2006|02:21pm] |
And Now a Few Words from Me:
Advertising’s Leading Critic Lays down the Law Once and for All
– Bob Garfield
– As one might expect from the title, this Bob Garfield is pretty full of himself. So much so that it was difficult to wade through the introduction to the book. However, it was a fun book to read, with lots of humour, lots of quotable lines, and very enjoyable on the whole. Is it something important that everyone should read? No. Do I recommend it for its Fun Factor? Absolutely.
– Quotes and Excerpts: ( Read more... )
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| RESOLVE |
[13 Jan 2006|01:30pm] |
Tuesday:
I snapped and decided I couldn't take it anymore.
Wednesday
I did a bunch of research into resources, opportunities and policies that would help me identify what hurdles exist to advancing my, so called, career. Resolved to 1) examine my personnel file 2) query the current status of my job description (which I had to submit almost two years ago) 3) ask for written explanation of why I failed to achieve the short list for a job I applied for 2 months ago - and would have been great at.
Most Importantly - I Have SET A GOAL to get out of my current position, This Calendar Year, and get into something I would derive more (which isn't saying much) satisfaction from.
The civil service commission, on the govt website provides a document called the "Core Competencies Catalogue". "The purpose of the catalogue is to provide a common dictionary (language) of competencies that can be referred to when describing / determining all that you bring to your work and the work... outlines those critical competencies that most people in the Government of Manitoba will require or need to develop to some degree in order to be successful in helping a Department meet its objectives, regardless of their hierarchical level, the work they perform or their background."
Interestuingly, while anyone can read this file on-line, or save a copy for themselves, the document is protected from being printed! WTF! I don't know if this was someone's decision or merely a mistake. This document helps people evaluate their skills - and more importantly provides anyone who's interested, with the specific language and buzz words HR looks for when translating Job Applications into their Skill rating system.
Thursday:
Things are coming into focus. I've set an important, specific, achievable goal; quite possibly the first such articulated statement of my life. And I've identified a series of activities that will help me to achieve the goal (a 3-pronged approach):
1) Research,
2) Prepare, (Act on research; Be ready for when opportunity presents itself; including getting into better physical shape)
3) Promote myself by producing excellent, more visible work, to carry my name outside my current organization.
The biggest challenge will be internal - keeping my mind-set. ("Resolve" as dubya would say)
Friday:
Boss invited me to chat about current/upcoming projects, and responded verbally to one of my e-mails. Our first real communication in about 2 months.
I'm still determined to beat my way out of here; unlike few before me have achieved.
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| WORK |
[10 Jan 2006|10:15am] |
Its official
I can no longer stand it here
Everything I do, from now on, will be in an effort to get out of this place
Somebody shoot me
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| And Again - Lame but it strokes me |
[06 Jan 2006|04:49pm] |
The Picto-Personality Test
You are a person who likes to have fun all the time.
When alone, you let it all hang out and ignore every social convention.
You are romantic, and when you are with your partner you like to woo them with your imagination.
In the future you will be wise and healthy.
| | Take this Test at QuizGalaxy.com |
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| Lame, But Oh - The Colours (and how come I don't feel Happy?) |
[06 Jan 2006|04:32pm] |
Your Social Dysfunction:
Happy
You're a happy person - you have a good amount of self-esteem, and are socially healthy. While this isn't a social dysfunction per se, you're definitely not normal. Consider yourself lucky: you walk that fine line between 'normal' and being outright narcissistic. You're rare - which is something else to be happy about.
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Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com
Please note that we aren't, nor do we claim to be, psychologists. This quiz is for fun and entertainment only. Try not to freak out about your results.
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| Rats...Work |
[22 Dec 2005|11:53pm] |
I caught a rat in a sticky trap in my basement. I was so happy to have caught the rat so quickly after just discovering it on the weekend. Then I realized, this may not be "The Rat", it may be one of many. Who knows; But I'm hoping thats it.
I'm so looking forward to having a few days off.
I haven't spoken to my boss in weeks; nor he to me. The tension in the office is, well, tense. Today, coming back from our staff Christmas lunch, a co-worker commented that the boss seems angry all the time these days; quiet and angry - so it may not just be me, but I think I am the cause.
One More Day. One More Day. One More Day.
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| A Couple Chuckles |
[21 Dec 2005|01:59am] |
On a Sign at McNalley Robinson Bookstore
Children left unattended
Will be provided with an esspresso
And a Puppy to take home.
Radio Host Margaux Watt,
reading the weather this afternoon said
"Chance of Flowers for Churchill".
At least that's what I heard.
I really don't think she should tease Churchill like that,
as far North as they are.
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| 2005 Books: |
[20 Dec 2005|01:19pm] |
A Walk in the Woods
– Bill Bryson
– Written to be read aloud
– Used parts of chapter 1 (deciding to walk the Appellation Trail) and chapter 2 (how to prevent and respond to Bear Attacks) for Toastmasters Reading (Nov 22/05)
Dead Air
– Iain Banks
– British bestselling writer; I’m not particularly impressed with what he has to offer; truly forgettable blather that I imagine is repeated in all of his generically inspired novels – Anyway, I’ll never know for certain.
Why I am so Wise
– Friedrich Nietzsche
– I plan to re-read and make notes.
Train your dog in one Hour
– Sandy Butler
How to Ace the Brain Teaser Interview
– John Kador
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| 2005 Books: |
[14 Dec 2005|05:40pm] |
Bangs & Whimpers: Stories About the End of the World
– James Frenkel Editor
– Especially liked
“Killing the Morrow” by Robert Reed,
“The Wind and the Rain” by Robert Silverberg,
“Expendable” by Philip K. Dyck,
“The Manhattan Phone Book (Abridged)” by John Varley,
and found “The Last Question” by Isaac Asimov, quite neat.
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| 2005 Books: |
[14 Dec 2005|05:39pm] |
Stories of Terror and Madness from the Borderlands
– Elizabeth & Thomas Monteleone Editors
Photocopied
“Answering the Call” by Brian Freeman
“Smooth Operator” by Dominick Cancilla
“The Stationary Bike” by Stephen King
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| 2005 Books: |
[14 Dec 2005|05:37pm] |
Poisonwood Bible
– Barbara Kingsolver
– Very enjoyable. Effective literary device using the daughters’ different perspectives to present the story as it unfolded for each of them. Judging by this novel, she’s a brilliant author. My one complaint, it was I think too long, but I’m not sure where or how it may have been ended sooner. It was almost like two books.
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| 2005 Books: |
[14 Dec 2005|05:19pm] |
Life of Pi
– Yann Martel ?
– This award-winning novel was okay. The fact that it has stuck with me to the extent that it has, however, I owe to the attention I paid while reading it, because my friend Heather wanted to know the Truth! I maintain that it was merely “Okay”. Oh, but the continual hype... illustration contests... motion picture...
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[10 Jun 2005|03:07am] |
| Your IQ Is 115 | 
Your Logical Intelligence is Above Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Above Average
Your General Knowledge is Exceptional |
Not Bad, Considering I Didn't Answer All the Questions.
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